In April of 2013, the “final” Love Quest was completed. Agape was found and that was the whole
point.
Almost a year later, we are in much the same place. On some levels there is massive change, yet
inside, maybe not so much. Yes, the
world is taking on a different hue and what is clear now is that regardless of
what it looks like to anyone else; it is only about you. As you look around, you see all your feelings
reflected.
These things are not mistakes; they are attributes of your
inner beliefs reflected back for your consideration.
You have reached a point in your awareness which
incorporates self love or its opposite – self loathing. You must choose. Together we’ll take this a step further. We’ll explore living in Agape.
We will know the choice we make in each instance by focusing
on our feelings. They are our messengers
and have always been. We’ve gone through
so much; altered the course of humanity with our love, light and
determination. So, is this as good as it
gets? Understand that this may be as
good as it is right now, yet it is by no means as good as it gets. You’ve been unable to eradicate this self
hatred you carry. It cannot co-exist
with Agape. There have been others who
came to remind you to love yourself.
They only stayed until the self-hatred forced them out of sight.
The self control you hold onto so tightly stifles free
expression. In your efforts to remain
secure you’ve built a prison. You can’t
escape now without busting down the walls.
You’ll need some heavy tools.
You consider these tools dangerous. They include not knowing, allowing, permitting, releasing, letting go and going your own way.
You do not know what you want and as a result never get
there. It’s all just preference. Pick something. Make it a priority. Watch what happens. It could be anything. Give yourself what you want without
explanation. Participate in the
re-definition of your future. Focus
there. You cannot get to a new place on
a dead end street. You may have to turn
around.
You didn’t come here to depend on someone to do it for
you. It doesn’t matter how very lost you
are. You came to figure out how to do it
yourself.
Once you are clear on who you are – you will have to decide
that whoever that is, he or she is okay.
Fine even. Maybe she’s
fantastic. Perhaps he’s brilliant. Your life will change then. You will feel
satisfaction because you’ll have finally shown yourself love.
So pick a place that you enjoy and live there. Let the rest be damned. They’ll get along fine without you. Let them.
More to the point, allow yourself.
It’s okay. You can love yourself.
This is not about leaving people. This
is about finding yourself. There is a
very real difference. If you have been lost, you will understand the
distinction.
This is what it’ll take to bust down those walls. It’ll take bravery and gentle precision as
you handle these new tools. Keep your
eyes on the prize and focus. Waiting for you is freedom and acceptance; love
without exception or condition. We’ll
get there. We are the ones we are
waiting for.
See you tomorrow.
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