Saturday, September 14, 2013

What its like to be free









I know a teenage girl whose boyfriend broke up with her.  Three days later, while in the midst of a tearful confrontation with him, she fell, hit her head and was unconscious for a few moments.  When she woke up, she was fine, except she had amnesia.  She remembered everything until the night he ended their relationship.  True story.

It’s like that. We’ve remembered everything right up until now.  This is the moment none of us recall.  Not the “dark ones”, not the bankers, not the “light workers”, not the “ascended” ones, not the boots on the ground warriors.  We like it this way.  That’s why we keep doing it. True story.

We are waiting, asking, longing, yearning and seeking when the answer is right here.  We wrote this f***ing part, right after all the other parts.  We did this.  We are the only ones who could have.  It is not up to anyone else, it is up to us.

There is no one with a better answer.  It is you that you’ve been waiting for.  There is no bad guy.  There can only be a victory if there is a war.  Stop fighting. The game only ends when we stop playing.  Wake up. 

We are at the ending part.  The climax.  The big finish.  Soon to be followed by the sequel.  There is never an ending, not really.  We know this.

We like big endings though.  They are part of every blockbuster and all of our favorite stories.  The sweat and the glory have to be breathed.  Heroes and villains are made then.  We never forget them. They offer every kind of entertainment and emotion.  We eat this sh** up. 

What will it take for us to remember?  It will take the unthinkable.  It will take a release.  We have to lift the curtain.  It is time to face our biggest fear. What you’ll let go of or need to see I do not know. 

For me, it will be the control.  It will be the absolute conviction that I am right.  It will be an exposure.  Every flaw, each unflattering angle, all the ugly parts will no longer be hidden. 

None of that matters now.  We are one.  Unity is the only answer. It is fear that keeps the amnesia in place.  It is fear that doesn’t let us see the truth.  The girl in our opening story was afraid, and so are you.  To admit that you are one with every villain, each enemy, and all of the ugliness you have avoided is terrifying.  Yet you are, and you are here right now to face it.  Then will come the acceptance, and with that, freedom.   You are actually exquisite. 

You are every other.  You criticize in others what you fear the most in yourself.  You are the villain and the hero.  You are the cheater and the cheated.  You are the murderer and the slain.  You are the beautiful and the hideous. The way to freedom is to see yourself everywhere.  Once you realize there is no separation, no division, no better, no worse – you are free.

Free to be – no limits – just exactly who you are.  No judgment.  No withholding.  All you, all the time.  Not hiding any part.  Not afraid of any trait.  Exposed.  Just out there. 

What is your biggest fear and your most secret thrill?  To be seen.  To be known.  Do it.  It is the only thing left.  It’s not the money that will grant your wishes.  It’s you. 

Love yourself without condition and go for it.  Don’t close your eyes.  This is not the scary part.  This is the best part.  You are so much more than you know.  It does not matter what you’ve done or who you think you’ve disappointed.  It has always been just you.  There is no one else. 

Everything that incites you and thrills you is directed at the one person who feels it the most.  That person is you. That’s because you are all that is.  Love yourself without restriction and watch what happens.

You’ve come to wake up from your amnesia. Remember. There is nothing to fear.  There is only you.  And you are the one you’ve been waiting for.


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