You’ve reached a critical moment for yourself. There are parts of you eating away at your
core. You’ve been unaware of them until now.
Why now? Because you’ve upgraded
and improved. In order for the new stuff
to stand strong and to last, anything that doesn’t support it – works to dismantle
it.
Our family owns property in the mountains and on it has
always stood what we affectionately called “the cabin”. It was little more than a tar paper shack
with an outhouse. Five years ago we tore
it down. In its place now stands a
double-wide trailer complete with steps and a deck we built ourselves. There is even a bathroom that uses water from
the stream running down the mountain.
It’s beautiful.
Four years ago something began eating the steps and the deck,
an unwelcome surprise. My nephew pulled
in late one night and discovered the culprits – porcupines. We’d unknowingly built them a banquet of
treated wood. They were ecstatic and
aggressive and voracious.
Now, we could shoot them but there were lots of them, they
were multiplying, and for sure they’d show up to continue the feast. We tried everything. We ended up in a compromise – an electric
barrier surrounding all wooden structures attached to the cabin. It doesn’t hurt them but keeps them away from
our steps.
It’s not that these critters had just arrived; they’d been
there for years. We only noticed them
when they threatened to destroy something we had just built, something new and
better.
The stuff coming up now in your life, whether emotions or
situations, is not new. You are
stretching, growing wings, becoming a newer, lovelier version. These things, whatever they are, don’t
support this new you. They were fine
before, when Agape was not on the radar.
Oh, you felt them – little jabs at your self esteem, dings at your self
worth and reductions of your self value – but they were par for the course and
passed quickly, soon forgotten. You
barely noticed them.
Today, they seem to be center stage with a neon sign
announcing their arrival. You can’t miss
them. You will have to do something
about them, to prevent them from destroying this new you.
For a long time they’ve comfortably travelled the same path
you did – much like the porcupines.
Today you are on the path to Agape.
They remain doggedly on their route to self-doubt. In order to prevent a disruption in your
journey you’ll have to dig deep – create such a well worn emotional path that
it’s the first place your feelings drop into.
The other path exists and is eagerly travelled by “not good
enough”, “have to”, “too slow”, “not ______(fill in the blank with your
favorite)”. You can still see it, but
it’s not your chosen route. This new,
shiny, upgraded path has been reinforced and is deeply lined with truth. It’s a stronger road and becomes more-so with
use. Plaques line its walls, saying
things like: “You are perfect where you
stand.” “I love you without exception.” “Under any condition and in every
instance you are loved.”
At first it feels weird to walk there, and a little uncomfortable. Persevere, it’s a faster trip and the
accommodations are better.
It took a long time for the porcupines to find our steps and
destroy them. We were caught off guard
and unprepared. You don’t have to
be.
Create a well worn path of self acceptance. When you somehow fall onto that old familiar
self defeating road, make a quick exit.
Remember where you are going. The
old road won’t take you there.
You are every inch the being of perfection you may have
expected to instantly morph into about a year ago. Self hatred blinds you to this truth. Love yourself and watch you show up. She’ll be everything you dream of. He’ll be all you imagine. You’ll see.
You are the one you are waiting for.
See you tomorrow.
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Wonderful! Thank you.
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Brenda